Like every year, Summer has began and I have already destroyed all my hopes of finally being productive during the season when I actually have time for myself. Every year I tell myself I will read. Read like crazy. Finally pick up the books that are simply taking up space on my overflowing bookshelf. I will exercise. It is sunny and I will run (more like walk) multiple times a week. Fruits are finally in season, so most of my diet will consist of juicy fruits…and perhaps a few vegetables. But, let’s face it, none of that is going to happen. It never does. I stay up late watching Youtube videos, wishing I made my own. I sleep in until I don’t have enough time before I go to work to go outside. And I stuff my face. My diet yesterday: Cap’n Crunch, Mac ‘n’ cheese, Taco Bell, and more Cap’n Crunch.
As I’m preparing to attend university in the fall and finally move out of my parents’ house, my list of things to-do grows exponentially by the day—and my motivation has curled up in the corner of my room under a pile of dirty laundry, never to be found again—until I muster up enough energy to clean my room. And no matter how many times I make a list of to-do’s, or how big I can write it all down on a poster on my wall, my chances of success are slim.
I know what you’re saying—if I think negatively the outcome will be—let’s say it together—negative. However, if past predicts future: what absolutely needs to get done will get done, and what could wait until later will join my motivation for the rest of the Summer.
But not this Summer.
I said that last year.
But I mean it this time.
I mean it this time……